Gone too soon..My soul sister

You're gone too soon. We were supposed grow old and become old maids together. You were to get married. I was to dance at the wedding. You were to listen to me bitch about my mother in law. You were supposed to stick around to help clear up my mess like you always did. We were to have a girls night out and get hammered on beer..you on fosters and me on Kingfisher. I forgot..you were on vodka these days..the more ladylike drink. Never told you but I liked you more when you were the beer drinking gal pal. Afterall I had my first beer with you. Come to think of it I havent told you a lot of things i wish i had. How does one make up for lost time?
I love you. I always will. I am sorry I got caught up with work and didnt stay in touch enough. You always did. Thank you. Everything that i have done in the last 9 years involves you, everywhere I've go there is a memory spent with you, and just like that you're not there anymore to make more memories. Totos will never be the same. I dont think i have the strength to go there without you. You would have laughed at me behaving this way because I know somewhere you resented that i was or pretended to be too detached..well i am not. I am not as strong. You were much stronger. How do i cope? I tell myself you're free, happy to do as you please. That you would have preferred not live through the drudgery of daily life. You were above all that. Truly gifted. Thank you for the best 9 years..for the memories..for being there. I will think about you and us together each day. I love you PP.